Written on the 2/03/2012

I am constantly confused, dissatisfied and tormented by the idea that there is ''something more'', ''something better''.There has to be more than what I have, there has to be a wider range of feelings, a wider range of views, of emotions, of experiences- be it spiritual or simply anodyne. There has to be something more beautiful, something so overwhelmingly good and perfect that man can never touch except with his fingertips, in his dreams. But, concretely, there has to be something more. I long all day to find it, but the question that there is nothing more for me always haunts me at night.

Nostalgia for a place

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I always find myself longing for something that I cannot have. Travel and family is one of them. I am constantly longing for the place I have just left, only to return and long for someplace new. 

Can I never be content in being in an exact place at an exact moment? Will I ever learn to let go of nostalgia and longing and realize that I must live in one place only? My problem, unlike others, is not living in the future or the past, it is living in a given space, a given location.

I would like to be everywhere at the time, to be everything at the same time, to be everyone and experience everything at the same time


Written on the 14.02.2012